Should I Surrender to My Pain?

I’m always up for a challenge at the gym, but my trainer introduced me to a new exercise recently that brought me to my knees…literally.

It’s called the “surrender” and involves dropping first to one knee and then down to the other before rising up again into a mini squat one leg at a time. Trust me, it’s a lot harder than it sounds. After about 3 surrenders, I was breathing hard, my quads were burning, and I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it to the end!

Guest Blog with Lacey Rae Crews

I know we've all been anxious, especially this year. At least I have, I'll admit it. The election, the unrest in our country, the pandemic, lost jobs and lost lives cause us to see that we clearly are not in control.

What is the human reaction to seeing you're not in control?

Anxiety.

Can I Depend on God When I Feel Let Down?

Have you ever felt let down?

Maybe it was a friend who did not fulfill a promise, a colleague who did not finish their part of the work or a family member who was not there when you needed them most.

It can be so hard at times to find people we can truly depend on and trust.

Recently, I found a trustworthy companion in the most unlikely of places…

My 17-month old nephew, Charlie.

God, Why Did You Let This Happen?

My nephew, Charlie, is 17 months old, and it has been so much fun watching him grow.

Listening to him learn new words has probably been my favorite part of this process. One of the first words, other than Mama and Daddy, that he said clearly was “book”. It was adorable! I remember being so amazed at how this small little human had expressed such a clear thought. With each new word that he says, it brings a smile to my face.

It won’t be long before he expands his vocabulary further and even begins to string these solitary words into small sentences. Before we know it, he will be asking that question that parents with small children hear so often…”Why?”

Where Do You Feel Closest to God?

Where do you feel closest to God?

Is it in a quiet, serene setting like a garden or flowery meadow??

Maybe it is in your living room with a cup of coffee in hand during the early morning hours.

What about in the back corner of a cozy coffee shop or when you are singing hymns in church?

All of these are good answers to the question, and, honestly, there are no wrong answers. Everyone is different and everyone experiences closeness with God in a different way.

Does God Have Your Full Attention?

Since losing my sight, I have experienced a lot of awkward and cringe-worthy moments.

I don’t even need to list all of them, because I’m sure you can imagine some of the crazy things that can happen when you are navigating the world without being able to see.

Recently, I had one of these experiences at the gym.

How God Has Blessed Me Through My Sight Loss

When I was about 10 years old, I experienced one of the scariest moments of my life.

It was a beautiful, sunny day and I was on horseback, my favorite place on earth. While riding through an open pasture with my sister, my horse suddenly got spooked and took off at a full gallop.

I considered myself a pretty seasoned equestrian at the time, but this sudden increase in speed took me by surprise and, before I knew it, I was literally hanging upside down beneath the horse’s neck.

What it Means to Walk by Faith, Not by Sight

Since losing my sight in 2015, 2 Corinthians 5:7 has become my motto.

It says, “For we walk by faith, not by sight.”

Over the last five years, I have seen this verse ring true in my life both spiritually and literally as I navigate the world without my sight. Merriam Webster defines faith as, “Belief in, loyalty to, and complete trust in God, and as a firm belief in something for which there is no proof.”

So, what does it mean to navigate the world solely on your trust in God and on your belief in the unseen? What does it mean to walk by faith and not by sight?

Listening to God's Call

A friend told me recently, “God doesn’t call the equipped, rather He equips those who are called!” This is so true! God definitely gave me the tools to be able to share my testimony when He called me to do so, and He continues to prepare me for this purpose even today. There are definitely times, though, when I do not receive God’s call as easily or willingly.

It's Been Five Years

May 5, 2020 (5/5/20) will be the 5th anniversary of the surgery on May 5, 2015 (5/5/15) that left me blind. That’s a lot of fives! When this date comes around each year, it is always a very emotional time. I think a lot about what my life was like back in 2015 and how suddenly all of it changed. It is hard during these moments of reminiscing to not dwell on how challenging my life is now due to my blindness compared to how carefree my life used to be.

Facing Fears

We are all afraid of something whether it’s heights, snakes, spiders or clowns. In fact, I used to be scared of the dark. Before I lost my sight, I always had to sleep with my closet light on...even when I was 20 years old. So, when the world went dark in 2015, I was forced to face this fear. It was scary, to say the least, but I was able to learn a lot about how to conquer what makes us afraid. Here are a few things that I learned.

Let's Go Back to the Beginning

I have not spoken much about what my life was like before I learned to adapt to my blindness. While I do not believe I will ever completely get used to all of the hardships that blindness brings, I have made a lot of progress in the last five years.

While I normally focus on the positives, this week I want to give my readers a little insight into how I felt, what I thought, and how I lived immediately following my sight loss.

Reflecting on 2019

2019 has been a whirlwind to say the least. From embarking on some incredible journeys and welcoming new life into the world to beginning new endeavors and closing the door on others, life has been pretty exciting! So, before we say Merry Christmas and hello to 2020, let’s take a second to reflect on 2019.

Finding Purpose in Honduras | Part 1

In late January of this year, I was asked to embark on a big adventure.

The Bowdon Foreign Mission Team invited my to join them on their annual trip to Honduras as the inspirational speaker this year. I was surprised, to say the least. The furthest place I had ever been asked to speak was south Alabama and I wasn’t too keen on traveling to a third-world country. Something came over me though, call it God or call it a momentary lapse into insanity, but I immediately said yes.